Friday, November 30, 2007


As I was coming into work tonight, I drove past Culver's and the sign said, "Tuna Sourdough." My first thought was, "That has to be one of the top 5 worst ice cream flavors ever created."

Thursday, November 29, 2007

It's complicated....

Many of my friends are (or have been) in relationships where "it's complicated." Heck, it's even a descriptive option on facebook. My question is....when is it NOT complicated? When was the last time you heard somebody say "It's easy. We communicate so perfectly that there has never been a misunderstanding. We agree on everything and wouldn't change a single thing about the other person. We have each other completely figured out and it is all smooth sailing from here."

Part of the beauty of relationships is that two people can spend a lifetime together and still not have each other "pegged." I am not even IN a relationship right now and yet "it's complicated." I have spent more time with myself over the last 23 years than anyone else has and I still haven't figured me out.

I am a homebody who wants to see the world. I am a pessimistic realist who can find a way to laugh about nearly everything. I am currently in Seminary and it is simultaneously the best and worst part of my life. StrengthsFinder tells me that I value harmony and fairness yet I live like an opinionated elitist. I have developed too many deep and meaningful friendships to adequately maintain them all yet I can't shake the feeling that people don't like me. I am a relatively cultured individual who clings to the simplicity of my small-town roots. I don't like to talk but once I get started I can go on for hours uninterrupted. I am a strong, confident woman who is scared of people in general. I am the reserved, quiet one who is a born story-teller. I prefer to live by myself and fear that I will be alone forever. I play 11 instruments but have never considered music one of my talents. I am a rule-oriented, left-brained person who loves art, photography, literature and theater. I am confident in decisions like buying a home and returning to school but I hate figuring out where to go for dinner. I like everything to be in its proper place but you would never guess it by looking at my desk.

So, you ask, "what it is you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" (Mary Oliver)

Well, you see, it's complicated....

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Give me 23 days

I may blog again. Where is this urge coming from? Well, thanks for asking. I am not entirely sure. My reasons may include (but are not limited to):

-The sudden and mysterious death of which has left me deeply saddened and bewildered. I suppose this blog is my form of a rebound relationship.

-Being back in school has fired up my creative writing capacities and I need an outlet.

-I recently returned to reading the blog of an old friend, discovered the blog of a new friend, and I continue to check lh's regularly as well. The humor and depth of thought on these three sites has inspired me to try to join the ranks of blogs that are worth reading.

-My dad always tells me I am a talented writer and I am determined to prove him wrong.

-My new night shift schedule allows me the most free-thought time between the hours of 0100-0400 and normal people are not awake to talk to/process ideas with at that time.

I am giving myself 23 days to decide if this is worthwhile.